to know that you still care

Note for FSA

someone told me to say it before i run out of time. say it before its too late. say what my feelings. waiting is mistake. so here goes.

i saw that post. yang i tanya tu. i nak unfriend i nak block you. tapi i ada hutang dengan you. so i tanya dulu.

i rasa tak best nampak post tu because deep down inside me i still have feelings for you rupanya. i still care. i nak tau you oke ke tak. i nak tau you happy ke tak. i nak tau you rasa lonely ke tak. i nak tau semua benda bout you.

hutang.....
there's one text from you dulu, just make me smile. it feels soooooooo good that i just sit there and smile like a bloody idiot. then proceed to read it few times again just to make sure i wasnt dreaming it. but then, something happen. you take it back.

you said its not the right thing to do. you said it wasnt suppose to happen. imagine how does it feels. bhahahahahahaha. you cakap, tak payah tunggu you, but i still do. tak text tak otp macam dulu, i still tunggu. sampai this one time i ketawa and was asking myself, "aku tunggu apa ni?".

so, conclusion nya, i wanna move on. i end up here. studying. far away from family and friends. far away from you. but i forgot, you're never too far away because you're close to my heart.

and for that i wrote you a note. i post it in instagram hoping that you'll notice. tergelak i, tears ada jugak.

i keep holding on to the hope that each day may be different. just may be. or maybe this note will change everything.

oke. habis dah hutang i dengan you. harap2 karangan ni tak mengganggu rutin harian you. bukan baru2 ni je apa yang i rasa ni. dulu lagi. since November 2010 lagi. tapi asyik tertangguh je.

lega.

28 08 2015

You

hello.

selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin. 

XD

Engagement Replacement

Pain mends broken hearts by forcing into action the unwanted change that heals.

Engagement, marriage is just a replacement.



Tapi. Opie ikhlas.

Akhirnya

Minggu lepas i dreamed about you, us. Hanging out, doing nothing. Just me and you. Duduk. Diam. Lama. Then you hilang. So i tried to call. Tak dapat. I was worried. Bad things happen ke? Semalam i tried again. Still sama. So today i decided to contact you dekat FB. Message je. And you replied. You're oke. Good.

              

I nak called nak sangat. Tapi ego. Zharif Bux, be good oke. Selalu doakan you. 

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