malam ni dah masuk 4 malam kot xboleh tidur. tak tahu la apa masalah nyer skang. tolong la bukan Insomnia. kalau Insomnia dah kira parah dah tu, boleh jadi cam cite fight club la pulak.
disebabkan tak boleh tidur ni saja je la nak menulis skit.
kadang2 terasa macam terlalu ambil berat pulak pasal Opie ni. die cakap tak pe sebab tu la tanda sayang. oke. tapi Opie sure ke tak rasa rimas. risau die jadi rimas je sebab kadang2 ada benda yang kita suka berkongsi dan ada benda yang kita tak suka orang lain masuk campur kan. tapi kalau nak kata diri sendiri, I memang x suka berahsia. I memang x kesah la kalau you nak tanye pasal apa. kalau ada apa2 yang musykil tanye je la. tapi I suka dengar masalah orang. mana la tau boleh tolong selesaikan masalah tu. kadang2 kita ni lagi suka bila diri kita ni diperlukan, tak ke gitu kan.
Opie, kalau ada apa je yang perlu or tak perlu dikongsi bersama bagitau je k. motif ni tak nak bagi Opie rasa tak selesa je n takut hubungan kita renggang je. risau terlebih limit je. oke settle la tu. nak mandi dulu
*damn, rekod tak makan megi dah pecah. f**k 7e tak jual makanan berat2 pagi2 ni.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
kembali bertenaga
yeah! Opie dah bangun. lama gak la tunggu die bangun. ada gak 30 jam di senyap je.
cepat sembuh yea Sophie Azhar @ MOK
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Sophie Bt. Azhar
Sophie bt Azhar, sejak ku mengenali mu kahidupan ku semakin berubah. baru ku rasa nikmat dunia ini. bnyk yang telah ku pelajari dari mu. aku sedar diri ku ini tidak sesuai untuk mu. tetapi aku cuba untuk mengenali mu dengan lebih rapat sejak tanggal 15 Oktober yang lalu. kini perhubungan kita sudah mencecah 6 bulan 8 hari. walaupun 6 bulan ini boleh dikatakan singkat masa nya, tetapi ku rasakan seperti telah mengenali mu sejak kecil lagi. pelbagai perasaan telah ku kongsi bersamamu. perasaan sedih, hiba, menangis, sayang, gembira, ketawa dan macam2 lagi. tetapi semua kenangan ini memberikan ku kenangan yang tidak dapat ku lupakan sehingga ke saat ini dan semua ini memberi kan memori bahagia buat diriku. aku tidak sanggup merasakan kehilangan mu. walaupun kita tidak boleh menjadi pasangan kekasih seperti orang lain, aku tetap berbangga dan gembira kerana kita dapat mengenali diri masing2 dengan rapat. kehilangan suara mu di atas muka bumi ini semenjak 10.00 pagi tanggal 23 April membuatkan kitaran hidup ku menjadi kucar kacir. hanya khabar dari mu sahaja yang dapat membantu ku buat masa ini. perasaan ku kini susah digambarkan dan hanya Allah sahaja yang Maha Mengetahui betapa perit nya saat ini. biar la orang nak kata apa pun tentang susunan ayat ni, jiwang mahupun poyo, janji nadi mu sentiasa berdetik tat kala ku sentiasa menunggu kepulangan mu dan perasaan ku ini tidak dapat nak disembunyikan lagi bagai dipukul ombak tsunami. aku akan sentiasa mendoakan segalanya untuk mu. bangkit la Sophie bt Azhar agar hidup kami dapat disinari lagi dengan suara dan karenah mu.
EMINEM - I NEED A DOCTOR
persamaan video ni seperti mengharapkan Opie kembali sembuh n sedarkan diri.
tolong la jangan tinggal kan kami yang memerlukan anda.
tidak boleh terbayang kehidupan selepas ni tanpa Opie.
seriously tgh sedih gile ni.
perasaan memainkan peranan penting skang ni.
Doaku sentiasa bersamamu Sophie Bt. Azhar
dah nak masuk sehari dah Opie x sedar kan diri. Ginda baru je bagitau Opie baru je kena 'arrhythmia' yang bermaksud heart beats tiba2 menjadi laju. hurm. Oke skang ni dah start x senang duduk. ya Allah tolong la selamat kan Sophie bt Azhar ku. kami xsanggup kehilangan beliau.
semenjak Opie x sedar kan diri ni, fikiran jadi x tentu arah. nak tidur pun susah. berapa lama lagi perlu kami tunggu. hanya doa saja dapat membantu buat masa ni. perasaan hati bercampur baur. susah nak explain tentang perasaan ni. baru sedar perasaan ni kadang2 tak dapat nak di gambar kan dengan perkataan. mood nak menulis pun bergolak dengan perasaan ni. kalau ada apa boleh dilakukan, pasti akan ku tunai kan. kalau nak diikutkan hati skang jugak nak drive ke Sunway Medical Centre. tapi biar kan je la dulu family Opie yang teman kan dia memandangkan keadaan pun tengah dingin skang ni. ada rezeki nanti kita jumpa la. I rindu sgt you, MOK! I pun dah x tahu nak buat apa. mulut dan hati ku tidak pernah berhenti terkumat kamit melafazkan doa untukmu. akan ku tunggu berita dari mu.
semenjak Opie x sedar kan diri ni, fikiran jadi x tentu arah. nak tidur pun susah. berapa lama lagi perlu kami tunggu. hanya doa saja dapat membantu buat masa ni. perasaan hati bercampur baur. susah nak explain tentang perasaan ni. baru sedar perasaan ni kadang2 tak dapat nak di gambar kan dengan perkataan. mood nak menulis pun bergolak dengan perasaan ni. kalau ada apa boleh dilakukan, pasti akan ku tunai kan. kalau nak diikutkan hati skang jugak nak drive ke Sunway Medical Centre. tapi biar kan je la dulu family Opie yang teman kan dia memandangkan keadaan pun tengah dingin skang ni. ada rezeki nanti kita jumpa la. I rindu sgt you, MOK! I pun dah x tahu nak buat apa. mulut dan hati ku tidak pernah berhenti terkumat kamit melafazkan doa untukmu. akan ku tunggu berita dari mu.
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xtahu nak kata apa. kejap Opie sayang ngan Zharif, kejap marah. lagi satu pasal ayat english tu, sekali baca, paham macam ni, baca lagi skali lain lak makna nya. 5-6 kali gak la baca baru nak paham. tu pun masih samar2 lagi hahaha. menyesal la jugak x blaja betul2 dari dulu. xleh nak blagak URBAN dah la lepas ni.
Friday, April 22, 2011
heh
oke now opie rasa sia2 buat macam2 untuk dia because dia macam tak nampak apa2 -___-"
kau ni memang macam babi!!
Sekian.
Friendship that would never break
Dear Firdaus Syafiq,
I love you. I always have, and I always will. My love for you is deep and permanent, and it is true love. I could never sleep with you, it would destroy and alter something that I can't specifically name. But I could curl up next to you and fall asleep quite easily.My love is boundless. I love you despite-- no because of your faults and unattractive behaviors. They are spicy and real and they make up part of who you are. Your character is fascinating, and I can only hope to continue to be an important part of your life for as long as you are an important part of mine.
You have always been such a wonderful protective and supportive person to me. you have been with me and been there for me ever since I met you. You were there for me when I was in love, in pain, in confusion. You've had more faith in me than I have ever had in myself.and I am endlessly grateful for that. You've provided me with an anchor of support, if not always sanity. With you, I feel that there are emotional things that will not change, even if our two separate lives do change on their own. I feel like there is something real and permanent about my love for you. It is like the sky when the mountains may crumble. It is like a background in front of which I will assume the various characters and personalities that this world directs me to.
There is nothing in this world that I would not do for you. I trust you with everything I have, and everything I am. I believe that you know this.and that you have known this for a long time.
I can only speculate on where these feelings came from. I might imagine that you are a kind of soul-sibling.and that we've been together for multiple lives. we were at places where we're as protector and partner to each other. Mutual and equal trust.as if we were employed to do the same task, and to do it together. In a world of lies and deception, you were the only one I trusted, and I was the only one that you could trust. Images and ideas similar to this have struck home with me and reminded me of you. I'm not your soul mate.and you are not mine. But I believe that we have known each other for an inconceivably long time.
I want to tell you these things. Perhaps someday I will tell you. Perhaps someday you'll see this, and I'll never know. However it happens, I want you to know that I love you, and that I'll always be there for you above any other person, be it lover, boyfriend, dream or depression. I count myself among the luckiest souls in the universe for meeting you. Thank you for being here for me.
Sophie Azhar
I love you. I always have, and I always will. My love for you is deep and permanent, and it is true love. I could never sleep with you, it would destroy and alter something that I can't specifically name. But I could curl up next to you and fall asleep quite easily.My love is boundless. I love you despite-- no because of your faults and unattractive behaviors. They are spicy and real and they make up part of who you are. Your character is fascinating, and I can only hope to continue to be an important part of your life for as long as you are an important part of mine.
You have always been such a wonderful protective and supportive person to me. you have been with me and been there for me ever since I met you. You were there for me when I was in love, in pain, in confusion. You've had more faith in me than I have ever had in myself.and I am endlessly grateful for that. You've provided me with an anchor of support, if not always sanity. With you, I feel that there are emotional things that will not change, even if our two separate lives do change on their own. I feel like there is something real and permanent about my love for you. It is like the sky when the mountains may crumble. It is like a background in front of which I will assume the various characters and personalities that this world directs me to.
There is nothing in this world that I would not do for you. I trust you with everything I have, and everything I am. I believe that you know this.and that you have known this for a long time.
I can only speculate on where these feelings came from. I might imagine that you are a kind of soul-sibling.and that we've been together for multiple lives. we were at places where we're as protector and partner to each other. Mutual and equal trust.as if we were employed to do the same task, and to do it together. In a world of lies and deception, you were the only one I trusted, and I was the only one that you could trust. Images and ideas similar to this have struck home with me and reminded me of you. I'm not your soul mate.and you are not mine. But I believe that we have known each other for an inconceivably long time.
I want to tell you these things. Perhaps someday I will tell you. Perhaps someday you'll see this, and I'll never know. However it happens, I want you to know that I love you, and that I'll always be there for you above any other person, be it lover, boyfriend, dream or depression. I count myself among the luckiest souls in the universe for meeting you. Thank you for being here for me.
Sophie Azhar
Love Letter for My Buxxie
Dear Buxxie,
If only I were a clever woman, I could describe to you my gorgeous bird, how you unite in yourself the beauties of form, plumage, and song!
I would tell you that you are the greatest marvel of all ages, and I should only be speaking the simple truth. But to put all this into suitable words, my superb one, I should require a voice far more harmonious than that which is bestowed upon my species - for I am the humble owl that you mocked at only lately, therefore, it cannot be.
I will not tell you to what degree you are dazzling and to the birds of sweet song who, as you know, are none the less beautiful and appreciative.
I am content to delegate to them the duty of watching, listening and admiring, while to myself I reserve the right of loving; this may be less attractive to the ear, but it is sweeter far to the heart.
I love you, I love you. my Buxxie; I can not reiterate it too often; I can never express it as much as I feel it.
I recognise you in all the beauty that surrounds me in form, in colour, in perfume, in harmonious sound: all of these mean you to me. You are superior to all. I see and admire - you are all!
You are not only the solar spectrum with the seven luminous colours, but the sun himself, that illumines, warms, and revivifies! This is what you are, and I am the lowly woman that adores you.
Love,
Sophie Azhar
If only I were a clever woman, I could describe to you my gorgeous bird, how you unite in yourself the beauties of form, plumage, and song!
I would tell you that you are the greatest marvel of all ages, and I should only be speaking the simple truth. But to put all this into suitable words, my superb one, I should require a voice far more harmonious than that which is bestowed upon my species - for I am the humble owl that you mocked at only lately, therefore, it cannot be.
I will not tell you to what degree you are dazzling and to the birds of sweet song who, as you know, are none the less beautiful and appreciative.
I am content to delegate to them the duty of watching, listening and admiring, while to myself I reserve the right of loving; this may be less attractive to the ear, but it is sweeter far to the heart.
I love you, I love you. my Buxxie; I can not reiterate it too often; I can never express it as much as I feel it.
I recognise you in all the beauty that surrounds me in form, in colour, in perfume, in harmonious sound: all of these mean you to me. You are superior to all. I see and admire - you are all!
You are not only the solar spectrum with the seven luminous colours, but the sun himself, that illumines, warms, and revivifies! This is what you are, and I am the lowly woman that adores you.
Love,
Sophie Azhar
Eli Yaya
Eli yaya.one word adorable.including sweet, nice, sedap mata memandang, comel (bak kata buxxie - jangan tukar DP ni COMEL) yes she is. XD kalau ada jugak yang akan ganti tempat sophie 1 hari nanti i'll make sure its Eli Yaya.i want her to be the one.Eli Yaya boleh bimbing buxxie *hopefully*.
opie dah rasa macam cerita ayat2 cinta dah ni.bhahahaha.oke its not funny, first time nampak eli ni masa dia walling dengan buxxie opie terus suka dia.and rasa dia sangat secocok dengan buxxie *dahmelelehni* bahhahaha.true.dia pun putih apa you like her eye dont you? + you cakap muka dia ada iras Sharifah Amani.yup i stalk everything last night.dia approve i.you keep telling me that im pushing you away, its for your own good.
bila you ada REALationship boleh lar belagak dengan kawan2 you.you found someone better.lagi ayu dari i.and you happy dengan dia.she like you kot.she respect us, but i respect her for keeping her feelings towards you yang.dia sangat tabah.dia tak wall you dah after that *fineitaktauifdiamsgyouIMyouSKYPEyou* kalau i jadi dia dah lama i close account.so its a good thing kan dia dah suka you, tapi you takde feel dekat dia?tu bukan masalah sangat, perasaan boleh dibentuk.yang penting you ikhlas.
its oke, i'll be fine.kalau takde restu from our family pun tak bagus untuk relationship kita.lagi kita tak jumpa.so its not too late for us to turn back.lagi yang birthday dia 12 September.boleh celebrate dekat Tony Roman.ingat tak? bhahahahaha.i cant believe im doing this, but i thing its the right thing to do.bukan i tak fight for it tapi family dulu.tak nak derhaka.dose dah bergelen2 tak payah nak tambah lagi lar.
bila dengar balik buxxie punya confession about eli, terasa sangat pedih tapi opie tahan lar sebab dah janji opie akan oke.so niat opie baik pe nak bagitau eli yang opie tak boleh together dengan buxxie, hopefully dia boleh jaga buxxie.sayang buxxie macam opie sayang dia.dia baik ouh.dia pandai jaga opie.demi Allah opie memang sayang dia, tapi kita tak ada jodoh, so opie mintak eli tolong jaga buxxie untuk opie.
opie sampaikan hasrat ni dekat buxxie, dia marah.tapi ni untuk dia bukan orang lain.and opie ada jugak pesan 'kalau dah ada pengganti please remove and block me from you friendlist' memang lar poyo.bhahahaha.
opie dah rasa macam cerita ayat2 cinta dah ni.bhahahaha.oke its not funny, first time nampak eli ni masa dia walling dengan buxxie opie terus suka dia.and rasa dia sangat secocok dengan buxxie *dahmelelehni* bahhahaha.true.dia pun putih apa you like her eye dont you? + you cakap muka dia ada iras Sharifah Amani.yup i stalk everything last night.dia approve i.you keep telling me that im pushing you away, its for your own good.
bila you ada REALationship boleh lar belagak dengan kawan2 you.you found someone better.lagi ayu dari i.and you happy dengan dia.she like you kot.she respect us, but i respect her for keeping her feelings towards you yang.dia sangat tabah.dia tak wall you dah after that *fineitaktauifdiamsgyouIMyouSKYPEyou* kalau i jadi dia dah lama i close account.so its a good thing kan dia dah suka you, tapi you takde feel dekat dia?tu bukan masalah sangat, perasaan boleh dibentuk.yang penting you ikhlas.
its oke, i'll be fine.kalau takde restu from our family pun tak bagus untuk relationship kita.lagi kita tak jumpa.so its not too late for us to turn back.lagi yang birthday dia 12 September.boleh celebrate dekat Tony Roman.ingat tak? bhahahahaha.i cant believe im doing this, but i thing its the right thing to do.bukan i tak fight for it tapi family dulu.tak nak derhaka.dose dah bergelen2 tak payah nak tambah lagi lar.
bila dengar balik buxxie punya confession about eli, terasa sangat pedih tapi opie tahan lar sebab dah janji opie akan oke.so niat opie baik pe nak bagitau eli yang opie tak boleh together dengan buxxie, hopefully dia boleh jaga buxxie.sayang buxxie macam opie sayang dia.dia baik ouh.dia pandai jaga opie.demi Allah opie memang sayang dia, tapi kita tak ada jodoh, so opie mintak eli tolong jaga buxxie untuk opie.
opie sampaikan hasrat ni dekat buxxie, dia marah.tapi ni untuk dia bukan orang lain.and opie ada jugak pesan 'kalau dah ada pengganti please remove and block me from you friendlist' memang lar poyo.bhahahaha.
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you guys make a cute couple XD
The date
20/04/2011 hari ni nak pergi survey kereta lepas tu date dengan buxxie.wehhhuuu ++ ader 20% Tutti Fruitti.best gila.kita nak makan Tutti Fruitti.so bangun awal sebab lupa off alarm damn! terpaksa lar bangun.text dengan buxxie.excited gila.bhahahaha.so keluar tengok baba ada dekat rumah.isk orang tua ni tak pegi kerja ke? bisik hati opie.so oke lar so bab tanya.
B : im going with you later.
hah? damn! macam mana nak date!
B : Sophie?! *tersentak*
O : ouh sure ba.sure.tak pandang muka dia pun.
opie rapat kan badan dengan bonda.
O : Opie nak keluar dengan Zharif.
BO : Sophie. *mengeluh*
O : oke.kalau sempat opie nak pergi jugak.i promised him.
opie gerak masuk bilik.mandi golek2 atas katil.online jap, then baba ajak gerak.baba nak pegi office dulu sebab nak sign few documents.oke.lama gila sampai dekat pukul 2 dekat office tu laparnya.nak marah baba sendiri pulak so oke lar tak pe lar.then baba cakap chicka nak ikut.what?! jem! kalau chicka ada means bala.muka dah kelat2 dah.kita pegi ambil chicka dulu.ambil chicka then makan then kita pegi survey kereta.chicka go for vios.cash.orang banyak duit boleh lar. -__-"
so lepas dah settle tu dah lewat gila so kita semua balik rumah dulu.buxxie asyik tanya jumpa ke tak.opie asyik cakap tak sure.sebab memang tak sure.sebelum balik tu dah lar jadi 1 hal lagi.
my phone rang i silent it because dalam kereta.chicka angkat kening.opie buat mulut cakap buxxie call.chicka boleh cakap kuat2
C : kenapa tak angkat zharif punya call?
baba dah pandang cermin pandang belakang.OMG! i know baba tak suka and baba akan marah.bonda pun buat muka.
B : Sophie still contact dia?
O : kawan je ba, takkan kawan pun tak boleh?
then baba diam.hurm.chicka senyum.oke!
so malam tu opie jumpa baba dalam bilik bacaan dia.
O : ba, opie nak keluar kejap.
B : Sophie tak faham?
O : tapi ba....
B : sejak bila jadi anak tak dengar kata ni? ni semua pasl facebook kan? do you want me to block all that you have?
O : tapi baba....
B : baba terkejut sophie macam ni.dulu dengar je apa baba cakap sekarang banyak meningkah.siapa ajar?
tiba2 pintu diketuk, kak rina masuk.kita dua pandang kak rina.
KR : baba, rina nak cakap sikit. *babaangguk* rina ada borak dengan budak tu semalam dia oke ba, dia chat dengan hery, layan hery baik2.i think he's oke.lagipun cerita yang chicka cerita tu tak sama dengan cerita sophie and zharif.
B : apa2 pun baba tak suka, now you two can go.
KR : give them the chance ba, mana tau it works
O : baba, last ba bagi lar opie jumpa dia first and last. *iactuallydahterdudukandtaklaratnaktahanlagisesaknafas*
B : no sophie, no and age does matter. *opiepandangbabastraighttohe'seyes* and baba keluar dari bilik.
O : kak rinaaaa.
so end of the day tak jumpa buxxie.
B : im going with you later.
hah? damn! macam mana nak date!
B : Sophie?! *tersentak*
O : ouh sure ba.sure.tak pandang muka dia pun.
opie rapat kan badan dengan bonda.
O : Opie nak keluar dengan Zharif.
BO : Sophie. *mengeluh*
O : oke.kalau sempat opie nak pergi jugak.i promised him.
opie gerak masuk bilik.mandi golek2 atas katil.online jap, then baba ajak gerak.baba nak pegi office dulu sebab nak sign few documents.oke.lama gila sampai dekat pukul 2 dekat office tu laparnya.nak marah baba sendiri pulak so oke lar tak pe lar.then baba cakap chicka nak ikut.what?! jem! kalau chicka ada means bala.muka dah kelat2 dah.kita pegi ambil chicka dulu.ambil chicka then makan then kita pegi survey kereta.chicka go for vios.cash.orang banyak duit boleh lar. -__-"
so lepas dah settle tu dah lewat gila so kita semua balik rumah dulu.buxxie asyik tanya jumpa ke tak.opie asyik cakap tak sure.sebab memang tak sure.sebelum balik tu dah lar jadi 1 hal lagi.
my phone rang i silent it because dalam kereta.chicka angkat kening.opie buat mulut cakap buxxie call.chicka boleh cakap kuat2
C : kenapa tak angkat zharif punya call?
baba dah pandang cermin pandang belakang.OMG! i know baba tak suka and baba akan marah.bonda pun buat muka.
B : Sophie still contact dia?
O : kawan je ba, takkan kawan pun tak boleh?
then baba diam.hurm.chicka senyum.oke!
so malam tu opie jumpa baba dalam bilik bacaan dia.
O : ba, opie nak keluar kejap.
B : Sophie tak faham?
O : tapi ba....
B : sejak bila jadi anak tak dengar kata ni? ni semua pasl facebook kan? do you want me to block all that you have?
O : tapi baba....
B : baba terkejut sophie macam ni.dulu dengar je apa baba cakap sekarang banyak meningkah.siapa ajar?
tiba2 pintu diketuk, kak rina masuk.kita dua pandang kak rina.
KR : baba, rina nak cakap sikit. *babaangguk* rina ada borak dengan budak tu semalam dia oke ba, dia chat dengan hery, layan hery baik2.i think he's oke.lagipun cerita yang chicka cerita tu tak sama dengan cerita sophie and zharif.
B : apa2 pun baba tak suka, now you two can go.
KR : give them the chance ba, mana tau it works
O : baba, last ba bagi lar opie jumpa dia first and last. *iactuallydahterdudukandtaklaratnaktahanlagisesaknafas*
B : no sophie, no and age does matter. *opiepandangbabastraighttohe'seyes* and baba keluar dari bilik.
O : kak rinaaaa.
so end of the day tak jumpa buxxie.
The so called end relationship
its the end of the day 18/04/2011.lepas dinner kita semua lepak dekat depan sambil tunggu yang lain.sepanjang menunggu tu takde pulak bagi hint nak cerita pasal apa, akhirnya 4 family sampai.so ayah long mulakan.bercerita tentang penyakit opie actually not big deal lar.diorang plan nak buat kenduri sebelum operation tu so kita semua setuju je lar.bincang nak lauk apa semua.then tiba2 Lynx tanya
L : what is this about zharif?
O : err, nothing.
C : dia lar punya opie pengsan.tah dia cakap apa dekat opie sampai opie pengsan.
O : tak chick opie just takde ubat tak makan ubat tu je.
C : opie jangan nak temberang lar i know everything since i met him at fb tu.he's nothing but a jerk.nak duit je semua tu.
O : no! opie memang extremely penat and bukan pasal dia.
L : i know fb is not good for you not anyone else
and yes been figthing for quite sometime.so apa opie buat pertahankan apa yang betul.but its true also where im hurt cuma hari tu memang weak sangat.may be sebab tu fainted.
opie pandang baba dengan muka sadis gila macam 'tolong baba tu tak betul jangan dengar cakap chicka' then baba just cakap, "opie dah besar tau mana buruk mana baik" damn macam mana.tengok muka bonda muka kecewa habis luluh hati opie.
chicka ni one thing lar, dia macam tak suka tengok opie happy.kalau boleh biar happiness tu datang sebab dia yang buat.thats the thing.
i told buxxie about what happen, its hard for us to let go and we decided to stay low.baba tak bagi opie jumpa dia or siapa2 yang opie kenal from facebook.dia start cakap opie dah berubah tak sayang dia tak sayang family and all.opie pun tak faham.is it wrong sekadar nak berkawan? right FB stays FB.hurm.so after that night buxxie and me jadi lagi close.
esok paginya bonda masuk bilik.
B : sophie dah bangun?
O : kesat2 mata, padahal otp dengan buxxie before that.
B : bonda nak cakap sikit
O : pasal malam tadi ke bonda, please percaya lar opie bukan zharif yang punya pasal i just get carried away thats all.
B : sophie please listen to me.he is 2 years younger than you.sooner or later he is goin to leave you for someone else even better than you.dia buat apa sekarang?
O : duduk rumah.
B : doing nothing? *opieanggukje*
O : tapi dia akan sambung belajar.
B : oke, what if dia seronok jumpa other girls and start to leave you?
O : he wont, he promised
B : sophie, promise were made to be broken.baik lepaskan sekarang dari nanti you lagi menderita.
O : you're suppose to support me, dont you wanna see me happy?
B : i do, thats why you should end the relationship.there so much more waiting for him in future, dia belum kerja dia masih muda.
bonda starts crying.and thats the only thing that i cant stand.
O : oke bonda.i will.for you i will.
so lepas tu opie terus text buxxie.and again.we'll stay.as long as we could.
L : what is this about zharif?
O : err, nothing.
C : dia lar punya opie pengsan.tah dia cakap apa dekat opie sampai opie pengsan.
O : tak chick opie just takde ubat tak makan ubat tu je.
C : opie jangan nak temberang lar i know everything since i met him at fb tu.he's nothing but a jerk.nak duit je semua tu.
O : no! opie memang extremely penat and bukan pasal dia.
L : i know fb is not good for you not anyone else
and yes been figthing for quite sometime.so apa opie buat pertahankan apa yang betul.but its true also where im hurt cuma hari tu memang weak sangat.may be sebab tu fainted.
opie pandang baba dengan muka sadis gila macam 'tolong baba tu tak betul jangan dengar cakap chicka' then baba just cakap, "opie dah besar tau mana buruk mana baik" damn macam mana.tengok muka bonda muka kecewa habis luluh hati opie.
chicka ni one thing lar, dia macam tak suka tengok opie happy.kalau boleh biar happiness tu datang sebab dia yang buat.thats the thing.
i told buxxie about what happen, its hard for us to let go and we decided to stay low.baba tak bagi opie jumpa dia or siapa2 yang opie kenal from facebook.dia start cakap opie dah berubah tak sayang dia tak sayang family and all.opie pun tak faham.is it wrong sekadar nak berkawan? right FB stays FB.hurm.so after that night buxxie and me jadi lagi close.
esok paginya bonda masuk bilik.
B : sophie dah bangun?
O : kesat2 mata, padahal otp dengan buxxie before that.
B : bonda nak cakap sikit
O : pasal malam tadi ke bonda, please percaya lar opie bukan zharif yang punya pasal i just get carried away thats all.
B : sophie please listen to me.he is 2 years younger than you.sooner or later he is goin to leave you for someone else even better than you.dia buat apa sekarang?
O : duduk rumah.
B : doing nothing? *opieanggukje*
O : tapi dia akan sambung belajar.
B : oke, what if dia seronok jumpa other girls and start to leave you?
O : he wont, he promised
B : sophie, promise were made to be broken.baik lepaskan sekarang dari nanti you lagi menderita.
O : you're suppose to support me, dont you wanna see me happy?
B : i do, thats why you should end the relationship.there so much more waiting for him in future, dia belum kerja dia masih muda.
bonda starts crying.and thats the only thing that i cant stand.
O : oke bonda.i will.for you i will.
so lepas tu opie terus text buxxie.and again.we'll stay.as long as we could.
Warded
belum pun berusia setahun jagung dah dicantas.sesungguhnya tuhan tu maha adil.segalanya diserahkan kepada-Nya.sesungguhnya Dia lah yang menentukan segala-gala dunia mahu pun di akhirat kelak.
opie tak rasa ini adil kerana segalanya bermula dengan salah faham.tanggal 15/04/2011 merupakan hari yang tidak begitu baik buat opie.opie akui opie silap.kesalahan pertama bila opie tak bawak ubat, kedua bila opie tak makan ubat, ketiga bila ubat yang sepatutnya dimakan tu bukan ubat yang betul.not to say ubat tu tak memberikan kesan, cuma ianya tak sama dan yang terakhir adalah kerana cemburu buta.
ubat, 1hb April sampai 4hb April opie dan 4 orang lagi team member termasuk driver pegi terengganu sebab ada urusan di PAKA.balik dari singapore tak sempat buat apa2 packing barang pergi terengganu pulak.balik dari terengganu lepak semalam esoknya terbang ke melbourne untuk training, barang dalam beg yang ke terengganu tak dikeluarkan lagi.dah bukak beg lain packing dan gerak ke airport.memang agak hectic lar masa tu.
so 3 hari dekat melbourne tanpa ubat.cari pharmacy terdekat, last2 masuk hospital sebab bangun pagi muka pucat lesi.dia ada bagi ubat tapi tak sama.tapi makan jugak lar dengan harapan boleh tahan sementara nak balik tu.last2 dapat email cakap kena balik singapore sebab ada issue besar.so malam tu jugak fly pegi singapore.so memang takde singgah rumah lar kan.bertahan je lar sampai lar kejadian itu berlaku.
im totally weak actually hari tu plus hari2 sebelum tu asyik ada masalah dengan buxxie.opie tak tau lar kenapa kuat sangat jealous.tapi tu lar.ni love struck i guess.he's always there for me buat i feel so much love.hari2 bertambah2 so yeah dia lar orangnya.so hari tu disebabkan oleh kerana terlalu sakit hati dan tak nak sakit tu berpanjangan opie suggest untuk end up the relationship.tapi bila dia yang buat keputusan opie mula sakit dada susah nak bernafas dan keadaan sekeliling gelap.
i end up in raffles hospital.ginda arrived around 8 kot not sure because masih tak sedarkan diri.around 2am opie sedar.first thing first kejut ginda.kita kejut dia baik2 kita kena maki balik.
G : bodoh apa you nie?
O : huh? *mamai*
G : pasal lelaki pun nak pengsan ke? kau tau tak yang ko tu tak sihat? kau tau tak semua orang risau kalau jadi apa2 dekat kau? kau ingat kerja semua orang nak jaga kau je ke?
O : what.....
G : did you do? a lot.you ingat i tak baca msg dalam inbox you tu? opie, orang lain pun bercinta jugak kenapa nak take it too serious.biar lar dia ada betina lain pun kau cari jantan lain tak boleh ke?
O : i...
G : opie, you're precious sophie. *diamkejapurutkepala*
O : opie lupa bawak ubat tu je.
G : kau ingat aku bodoh? when is the last time you've been warded?
its 2 1/2 years ago bila kau kata kau nak tinggalkan aku.
G : somehow i can read you.opie, there's a long way to go sayang *sayang?* please jaga diri.im not always there for you lagi dah.
O : why not?
G : aku tak suka kau! *terpempandadamulasakitairmatamenitik*
tiba2 ginda peluk opie.dah lama ginda tak peluk opie dan pagi tu opie rasa selamat sangat.menangis sedu2.
O : why do you leave me gin? *sekianlamaopienaktanyaihopethisistherighttime*
G : enough scars for you sophie *belaianrambutdarigindamemangsangatmenenangkanopie*
O : i miss us *entahdarimanadatangnya*
ginda lepaskan opie dan terus keluar.opie sambung tersedu2 sambil bbm firdaus syafiq dan text buxxie.tak silap opie buxxie terus call.borak dia cakap dia tau dari firdaus syafiq pasal opie, so yeah.tanya firdaus syafiq dia cakap ginda or ufiy yang pasti dua2 pun bukan.status bbm firdaus syafiq sweet gila.thanks.you're the best.borak sikit2 then this happen (linkkawanbaik).sumpah demi Allah tak niat.then terus dia tukar balik status pada Sherina dia.thats....hurmm...
so far 2 hari dekat hospital tu bosan.nasib ada notebook gf ginda boleh lar fb youtubing and all.to be honest opie ada sikit jealous tengok gin dengan gf dia.tapi bf orangkan nak buat macam mana.tapi 1 benda opie bangga jadi ex pada ginda, dia boleh ingat pad yang opie selalu pakai.bhhahahaha.oke awkward tapi yup.dia ingat.well kitorang dah lama kan.so yeah. XD
habis drama between opie and ginda.FYI, sampai hari ni opie tak tau kenapa dia tinggalkan opie.siapa2 yang boleh tanyakan tu dipersilakan lah.
opie tak rasa ini adil kerana segalanya bermula dengan salah faham.tanggal 15/04/2011 merupakan hari yang tidak begitu baik buat opie.opie akui opie silap.kesalahan pertama bila opie tak bawak ubat, kedua bila opie tak makan ubat, ketiga bila ubat yang sepatutnya dimakan tu bukan ubat yang betul.not to say ubat tu tak memberikan kesan, cuma ianya tak sama dan yang terakhir adalah kerana cemburu buta.
ubat, 1hb April sampai 4hb April opie dan 4 orang lagi team member termasuk driver pegi terengganu sebab ada urusan di PAKA.balik dari singapore tak sempat buat apa2 packing barang pergi terengganu pulak.balik dari terengganu lepak semalam esoknya terbang ke melbourne untuk training, barang dalam beg yang ke terengganu tak dikeluarkan lagi.dah bukak beg lain packing dan gerak ke airport.memang agak hectic lar masa tu.
so 3 hari dekat melbourne tanpa ubat.cari pharmacy terdekat, last2 masuk hospital sebab bangun pagi muka pucat lesi.dia ada bagi ubat tapi tak sama.tapi makan jugak lar dengan harapan boleh tahan sementara nak balik tu.last2 dapat email cakap kena balik singapore sebab ada issue besar.so malam tu jugak fly pegi singapore.so memang takde singgah rumah lar kan.bertahan je lar sampai lar kejadian itu berlaku.
im totally weak actually hari tu plus hari2 sebelum tu asyik ada masalah dengan buxxie.opie tak tau lar kenapa kuat sangat jealous.tapi tu lar.ni love struck i guess.he's always there for me buat i feel so much love.hari2 bertambah2 so yeah dia lar orangnya.so hari tu disebabkan oleh kerana terlalu sakit hati dan tak nak sakit tu berpanjangan opie suggest untuk end up the relationship.tapi bila dia yang buat keputusan opie mula sakit dada susah nak bernafas dan keadaan sekeliling gelap.
i end up in raffles hospital.ginda arrived around 8 kot not sure because masih tak sedarkan diri.around 2am opie sedar.first thing first kejut ginda.kita kejut dia baik2 kita kena maki balik.
G : bodoh apa you nie?
O : huh? *mamai*
G : pasal lelaki pun nak pengsan ke? kau tau tak yang ko tu tak sihat? kau tau tak semua orang risau kalau jadi apa2 dekat kau? kau ingat kerja semua orang nak jaga kau je ke?
O : what.....
G : did you do? a lot.you ingat i tak baca msg dalam inbox you tu? opie, orang lain pun bercinta jugak kenapa nak take it too serious.biar lar dia ada betina lain pun kau cari jantan lain tak boleh ke?
O : i...
G : opie, you're precious sophie. *diamkejapurutkepala*
O : opie lupa bawak ubat tu je.
G : kau ingat aku bodoh? when is the last time you've been warded?
its 2 1/2 years ago bila kau kata kau nak tinggalkan aku.
G : somehow i can read you.opie, there's a long way to go sayang *sayang?* please jaga diri.im not always there for you lagi dah.
O : why not?
G : aku tak suka kau! *terpempandadamulasakitairmatamenitik*
tiba2 ginda peluk opie.dah lama ginda tak peluk opie dan pagi tu opie rasa selamat sangat.menangis sedu2.
O : why do you leave me gin? *sekianlamaopienaktanyaihopethisistherighttime*
G : enough scars for you sophie *belaianrambutdarigindamemangsangatmenenangkanopie*
O : i miss us *entahdarimanadatangnya*
ginda lepaskan opie dan terus keluar.opie sambung tersedu2 sambil bbm firdaus syafiq dan text buxxie.tak silap opie buxxie terus call.borak dia cakap dia tau dari firdaus syafiq pasal opie, so yeah.tanya firdaus syafiq dia cakap ginda or ufiy yang pasti dua2 pun bukan.status bbm firdaus syafiq sweet gila.thanks.you're the best.borak sikit2 then this happen (linkkawanbaik).sumpah demi Allah tak niat.then terus dia tukar balik status pada Sherina dia.thats....hurmm...
so far 2 hari dekat hospital tu bosan.nasib ada notebook gf ginda boleh lar fb youtubing and all.to be honest opie ada sikit jealous tengok gin dengan gf dia.tapi bf orangkan nak buat macam mana.tapi 1 benda opie bangga jadi ex pada ginda, dia boleh ingat pad yang opie selalu pakai.bhhahahaha.oke awkward tapi yup.dia ingat.well kitorang dah lama kan.so yeah. XD
habis drama between opie and ginda.FYI, sampai hari ni opie tak tau kenapa dia tinggalkan opie.siapa2 yang boleh tanyakan tu dipersilakan lah.
Ego Masing-masing
disebabkan ego masing2, 42 jam tak berhubung. ingat kan Opie xnak diganggu sebab ada masalah, so sebab tu la tak text or tnye khabar die. hebat tak alasan ni hehe.. kalau nak diikutkan, Opie la bersalah. kali ni tak nak mengalah dah hahaha. last text die gak yang cakap I'll be right back. so tunggu je text dari die. kalau masuk court ni dah menang dah ni. disebabkan gentle punye pasal, I call la die. lepas tu kita lak yang kene marah. taik gile. lagi pun time tu Opie ada masalah kot. nanti kalau kacau time tu risau tak selesa ke n bertambah lagi masalah ke kang. kalau nak diikutkan memang banyak la alasan boleh bagi kan haha. manusia memang sentiasa mencari alasan. so sorry la Opie yea. lain kali Opie la text dulu, ladies first kan. lagi pun kiteorang ni selalu je free, Opie kan bekerja mane la taw time tu busy ke ape ke.
p/s: malam ni xleh nak tulis panjang2. ada ramai kacau ni. sorry ayat terabur.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Perasaan
sejak Opie cakap perasaan I senang nak berubah, macam2 bermain dalam minda. perasaan seseorang tu memang boleh berubah-ubah. tapi perasaan sayang tu memang susah nak berubah. kita memang boleh mengubah perasaan benci dekat seseorang tu, tapi nak mengubah perasaan sayang tu memang teramat la susah nyer. tadi cakap camtu bukan nya bermaksud x sayang dekat Opie lagi, perasaan sayang kat Opie semakin hari semakin sayang ada la. ni jujur n ikhlas dari hati I, tapi sayang I xreti n xdpt nk curahkan kasih sayang tu kat Opie. bab manja2 ni n sayang ni masih xreti lagi, mungkin sebab ego n I ni kasar sikit. I cakap semua ni bukan sebab nak rampas Opie dari Zharif ke ape. ni semua luahan je semata-mata. korang berdua pun macam secocok je. macam x logik kalau kita bersama *merendahdirini* hahaha. so, Opie n Zharif redha je la semua dugaan ni. kalau dah jodoh tu xkan ke mana kan. kite ni mampu merancang je, yang menentukan bukan hak kita. nanti lama2 elok la perasaan benci orang yang tengok korang bahagia ni. dulu pun I pernah benci Zharif. tapi lepas je sedar die mampu buat Opie bahagia, baru tahu bangang nyer diri ku ini. kata best buddy kan, best buddy mane nak tgk buddy die merana. so, semoga korang bahagia selalu k. woot woot.. hehehe
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Sebab xnak bercinta
kadang2 tgk org main couple2 ni macam best je kan. ade orang teman, boleh main luah kan perasaann macam2 la. ada gak terasa nak mencuba, tapi benda ni semua macam kena tolak tepi dulu la. banyak sebab die sebenarnye.
1-memang xleh nak commit la benda camni (mane ade pengalaman dong)
2-dah xleh commit confirm bnyk masalah timbul kan.
3-member pun xbagi (sebab bile dok bercinta ni memang bnyk la perasaan die, tension, emo n mcm2)
4-xtaw apa beza cinta ngan sayang
5-cinta tu jiwang (xbiasa la main jiwang2 ni ahahaha *ego*)
6-duit (mmg bnyk la duit kene guna kan, stakat MARA support ni nasi bujang je la hahaha)
7-cinta ni time manis best la, time pahit.......(sampai binuh diri pun ade)
8-memang xreti la nak bagi kasih sayang ni. (kalau bab2 ngarut tu boleh la)
cukup la tu. nak bnyk2 pun xguna kalau xnak kan hahaha. to Opie n Buxxie, semoga korang bahagia selalu. Zharif tu I percaya boleh bagi kasih sayang n membuatkan diri Opie special.
Happy Birthday Sherina Ellyana
kalau umur Elly panjang, skang ni dah genap 24 tahun dah. kadang2 ada gak nyesal, asal la kite x kenal dulu. kalu kite dapat kenal dulu kan best. ni la hasil nukilan dari bf die yg pertama n terakhir.
Aku nyanyuk ke?
sementara Opie tengah sedih2 ni, meh la nak kongsi cerita pelik2, mane taw leh ilang sakit ati die tu. last weekend cm biasa la balik genting. mula2 macam xnak balik sebab kat rumah sewa ni tinggal 3 orang je, 2 orang demam lak tu. nanti pape berlaku sape nak tolong kan, transport pun xde, yg ade cume Honda WAVE sebijik yang selalu abih minyak *wtf,xdekenemengenani*. time ari jumaat tu tgk dieorang dah sembuh je, so ape lagi pasang niat la nak balik genting. dah la ari jumaat tu ari penting kot *dahbgtawkanpasal15april* dengan Opie pengsan nyer. pukul 10pm je nak gerak balik ni, disebabkan nak celebrate birthday adik sendiri n member la kan. enuff about that la kan.
ni nak cite pasal dah start nyanyuk la ni. time otw nak bali tu ingt nak singgah kedai kek la kan nak beli kek. semangat tu nak g nilai cari kek. sampai2 je kat sana, baru la tesedar betapa bodo gak la diriku ni. kedai kek mane la yang bukak lagi kan time tu. nak kate bodo blaja dah bertingkat2 dah, bangang melantun2 la pulak hahaha. frust gile la xdpt nak beli adiah kan. padahal niat dah xbaik dh, nak amik ati org tua je hahaha.
esok nyer kena pegi pasar jap nak beli barang untuk memasak. eeee, rajin nyer firdaus syafiq ni tolong mak pegi pasar hehehe *nakjackdirisendirilani*. dengan semangat nyer amik kunci moto terus berlari ke motosikal capuk ku dengan keadaan yang sungguh kalut sekali. gile kau xkalut, perut tengah lapa ni nak tunggu masak lagi kan. pastu try la nak start. henjut punyer henyut x start gak. ni wat hal ape pulak ni kan. dah lama idup ke moto ni, nak kena jual ke. try henjut lagi xleh gak. try ushar tank ade minyak ke x, tengok ade je. xkan sparkplug dh rosak kot. baru tukar kot aritu. last2 baru ku sedar kunci moto tu x dijolokkan lagi. kunci kat tangan aku rupanya. ape la nasib badan kan, perut tengah lapar, nak tunggu moto start ade la 10 minit gak. asal la lampi sangat aku aritu. aishhh.
malam last kat genting tu, cam biasa la lepak kat mamak al-esfan gohtong jaya. perghh awek time ujung minggu ni memang berduyun-duyun la kan. tapi macam biasa la kalau x ngan balak dieorg pun bukan dapat ape pun. dapat tengok camtu je la kan. nak cite la skit, bab2 ngushar awek ni mmg fail la. tiap kali jeling je confirm kantoi. time ni pulak ade la budak praktikal baru kat hotel seri malaysia ni nak g makan. time tu dieorang duduk kat blakang kiteorang. boleh kata lawa gak la kan. biasa la laki mata meliar je keje. mule2 bajet cool la kan. dah lama skit tu ade la menoleh ke belakang, toleh2 je amik kau depan muka kantoi ushar. ni nak cover camne ni. sumpah malu ni. 'kak, ade tisu x?' ayat ni je yang mampu kluar time tu. ape la sengal sangat ni hahaha. lepas tu memang kene bahan la ngan member2 lain. serious fail hahaha. memang xnak lepak lagi la kat mamak tu sampai dieorang abih praktikal hahahaha.
senang cite kehidupan kat genting memang best la. memang kadang2 bosan, tapi bila datang best die, perghhh jgn cakap la kan, sampai nak gusi pun boleh cramp tahan gelak hahahaha. balik genting mesti ketawa je la keje nyer. tu la start nyanyok kot hahaha. melepak mamak tu jgn cite la. kat mamak ni macam2 cite leh keluar. boleh jadi tempat mesyuarat dah.
Tolong salah, tak tolong pun salah
nak tanye kang cakap menyibuk, x tanye kang cakap sombong lak. Opie nape ni? kejap gembira, kejap sedih. ape yang berlaku. siap ngan puisi2 semua ni. taw la malam ni ulang tahun birthday Elly hehehe. ni mesti sebab jealous kan. adat la tu bercinta main jealous2 ni. kalau xjealous cmne kasih sayang nak berputik *wahdahjiwangskang* hahaha. biasa la tu, xsemua orang suka tengok kita gembira. xyah la pikir kan sangat, nt lagi melarat sakit tu baru taw. just enjoy je relationship korg okay.
btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERINA ELLYANA SULAIMAN, nyesal kita xsempat kenal awal2 dulu..hmmm :'(
Monday, April 18, 2011
Sophie Azhar
jika kau tertanya2, lupakan dan sematkan didalam hati dan akal fikiran mu yang ini adalah
"the other side of me"
Cuma sesaat
waktu terlalu cepat
memintas malam pekat
hanya yang tinggal adalah saat
masa berlalu
semuanya tak seperti dulu
apa yang kita rasa dulu
tidak lagi,
bukan lagi utk sekarang.
dengar ya,
aku bukakan bicara
kawan,
kalau apa yg kita lalu dulu
tidak berlaku lagi waktu ini
jangan salahkan siapa pun
mungkin ada kita cuba pulang seperti dulu
tapi jalannya sudah ada beza
haluannya tak sama
kau pilih apa yang kau nampak
aku pilih apa yang aku nampak
kawan,
siapa tahu sekarang sudah ada kejauhan
tapi ingat
sekurangnya
kita pernah rasa gembira pada tempoh yang lepas
memintas malam pekat
hanya yang tinggal adalah saat
masa berlalu
semuanya tak seperti dulu
apa yang kita rasa dulu
tidak lagi,
bukan lagi utk sekarang.
dengar ya,
aku bukakan bicara
kawan,
kalau apa yg kita lalu dulu
tidak berlaku lagi waktu ini
jangan salahkan siapa pun
mungkin ada kita cuba pulang seperti dulu
tapi jalannya sudah ada beza
haluannya tak sama
kau pilih apa yang kau nampak
aku pilih apa yang aku nampak
kawan,
siapa tahu sekarang sudah ada kejauhan
tapi ingat
sekurangnya
kita pernah rasa gembira pada tempoh yang lepas
Bagaimana
bagaimana,
kalau hari ini,
hari akhir untuk aku?
bangun dari tidur kali terakhir
makan kali terakhir
menonton kali terakhir
menyisir rambut kali terakhir
ketawa kali terakhir
bersalaman kali terakhir
bermain piano kali terakhir
melangkah kali terakhir
menyanyi kali terakhir
memeluk kali terakhir
membuat panggilan kali terakhir
bagaimana,
kalau ini tulisan aku yang terakhir?
dan bagaimana,
situasi, rupa, dan cara aku mengakhiri semua itu untuk kali terakhir?
terus,
apa pula yang kemudiannya?
dua persoalan gila
untuk apa yang akan terjadi sebelum dan selepas
satu jasad yang sudah tiada roh di dalamnya
kalau hari ini,
hari akhir untuk aku?
bangun dari tidur kali terakhir
makan kali terakhir
menonton kali terakhir
menyisir rambut kali terakhir
ketawa kali terakhir
bersalaman kali terakhir
bermain piano kali terakhir
melangkah kali terakhir
menyanyi kali terakhir
memeluk kali terakhir
membuat panggilan kali terakhir
bagaimana,
kalau ini tulisan aku yang terakhir?
dan bagaimana,
situasi, rupa, dan cara aku mengakhiri semua itu untuk kali terakhir?
terus,
apa pula yang kemudiannya?
dua persoalan gila
untuk apa yang akan terjadi sebelum dan selepas
satu jasad yang sudah tiada roh di dalamnya
Pesan dalam mimpi
cantik mimpi malam itu
hingga buat aku paksa diri untuk terus tidur
hingga buat aku paksa diri untuk terus tidur agar ada sambungan yang lebih indah
dan bunyinya akan lebih hina
bila sanggup subuh gajah kerana mimpi itu
terasa benar sentuhan kamu pada mimpi itu
bahagia!
tapi sakit, sedih,
bila aku fikirkan kita dah sampai garis penamatnya
mimpi aku berakhir dengan pesanan mu
"dont forget to call me"
sure, i will
hingga buat aku paksa diri untuk terus tidur
hingga buat aku paksa diri untuk terus tidur agar ada sambungan yang lebih indah
dan bunyinya akan lebih hina
bila sanggup subuh gajah kerana mimpi itu
terasa benar sentuhan kamu pada mimpi itu
bahagia!
tapi sakit, sedih,
bila aku fikirkan kita dah sampai garis penamatnya
mimpi aku berakhir dengan pesanan mu
"dont forget to call me"
sure, i will
yela tu
ala MOK, biasa la tu jealous. bukan ke jealous ni tanda sayang? tapi jangan la jealous sgt sampai nk sakit kan diri sendiri. so, dah bincang belum dengan bonda pasal operation tu? ada baik nyer jugak operation tu. nanti lepas ni xde la sakit2 dh. kalau setakat makan ubat je sampai bile je boleh tahan kan. pikir la elok2. jgn asyk pikir -ve je oke.
MOTIF ??
mana ada motif la cik Opie oi! xkesah langsung pun nak cakap loser ke ape. kadang2 benda yg merendahkan diri cmni boleh membakar semangat kita lagi ada la. jangan risau sangat la. I oke je mane2 hahahaha...
jangan pikir bukan2 sangat la yea. kata nak chilling kan
Shahril Iman Sulaiman
Name:Shahril Iman Sulaiman
Nickname:Aril,Dol,Cantona
Born:September 21st,1984 @ Izmir,Turki
Weight:63kg
Height:5ft 8inch
Favorite food:Nasi Lemak,Roti Canai,Sambal Belacan.
Favorite Drink:Teh o Ais,Nescafe Tarik
Favorite Color:Red
Favorite Musics:RATM,Metallica,Helloween
Favorite Movies:Rambo,Rocky Balboa,Beavis and Butthead.
Favorite Quote:"Ryan Giggs lebih mulia dari Steven Gerrard ataupun Nakamura"-by me.ha!
Favorite Superhero:Ultraman
Favorite Villain:Joker
Favorite Sports Team:Man United FC(football)
Adidas or Nike:Nike
Indoor or Outdoor:Outdoor
Burger King or McD:Burger King
Pizza or Pasta:Pizza
Nickname:Aril,Dol,Cantona
Born:September 21st,1984 @ Izmir,Turki
Weight:63kg
Height:5ft 8inch
Favorite food:Nasi Lemak,Roti Canai,Sambal Belacan.
Favorite Drink:Teh o Ais,Nescafe Tarik
Favorite Color:Red
Favorite Musics:RATM,Metallica,Helloween
Favorite Movies:Rambo,Rocky Balboa,Beavis and Butthead.
Favorite Quote:"Ryan Giggs lebih mulia dari Steven Gerrard ataupun Nakamura"-by me.ha!
Favorite Superhero:Ultraman
Favorite Villain:Joker
Favorite Sports Team:Man United FC(football)
Adidas or Nike:Nike
Indoor or Outdoor:Outdoor
Burger King or McD:Burger King
Pizza or Pasta:Pizza
Ezreen Emira Sulaiman
- Name:Ezreen Emira Sulaiman
- Born:March 9th,1986@Kuantan General Hospital
- Alma Mater:Scuolo Internazionale Di Milano,Lambrate,Milano(1993-1997)
- Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Subang Jaya(1998)
- Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Damansara Jaya(1999-2003)
- University of Calgary,Faculty of Humanities,Political Science(2008-present)
- University of Calgary,Faculty of Engineering Science,Nuclear Engineering(2006-2007)
- Hobby:Reading,internet surfing,watching Celtic FC game
- Political View:Left Wing,Liberal Democracy,Social Justice,Liberalism,Liberal-Capitalism
- Art View:Minimalist,De Stijl,Neo Plasticism
- Music View:Alternative,Psychadelic,Post-Punk Revival,Art Rock
Angels and Devils
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside
I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see
still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us
if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside
I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see
still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us
if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
Motif
"untuk pengetahuan Opie, kiteorg yg dikalangan loser ni, kalau dapat awek yang xsecocok n cuma masalah die gagap ni memang puas hati la"
im so sorry i didnt mean it and i tak cakap langsung bout you dikalangan looser.sumpah demi Allah.anyway thanks sebab highlight benda ni.
jealous
"Jealousy is a secondary emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, particularly in reference to a human connection. Jealousy often consists of a combination of presenting emotions such as anger, sadness, and disgust. It is not to be confused with envy"
oke apakah ini? bhahahaha.yup i dont even know what the hell is this.its like nak dedah semua benda je kan.so dia macam ni.nak cerita about my jealousy.first kita cerita about what happen last week.buxxie ada ramai kawan perempuan.kawan perempuan dia ni memang baik dengan dia plus kawan perempuan dia ni juga dilayan dengan baik oleh buxxie sendiri.yang pertama ni, dia memang cantik bak kata noh dalam KAU PIJAK HATIKU LAGI cantik.....engkau memang cantik... ayu je muka dia, pandai masak buat video clip untuk dipertontonkan buat buxxie.masalahnya dia mesra sangat.macam ...eh mana favorite profile pic i tu?... hell yeah! you ada bf orang punya profile pic yang you suka? and you nak dia tukar? you kawan je asal nak dia ikut cakap LU babe? fine no biggie i oke je mana2.tu 1.
lagi 1, nurnadiah apa tah nama dia.fine awak lawa, jap *kawanbuxxiesemualawa2* infact budak lelaki kawan diorang semua memang lawa2 oke? tolong lar lelaki memang hanya pilih yang cantik je untuk dijadikan sahabat melainkan perempuan itu rakan sekelas.KAN? dah tau dah.oke this girl buxxie cakap memang macam ni.masalahnya kalau you tak layan takkan dia menggedik dengan you KAN? ni semua fakta oke.so this girl macam gurau2 dengan buxxie bout buxxie miss her and buxxie call her like every night macam tu.so i didnt said that i dont trust him tapi that girl dah kenapa? dia tau tak buxxie ada gf dah? asal nak gurau langsi sangat kan? so sebab kan benda2 macam tu me and buxxie almost nak end up our relationship and i end up myself dekat Raffles Hospital.
Hospital? yup.that is another story. XD
"if you know someone is taken, respect their relationship.dont be the reason they end up to be single"
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Bersamamu by Vierra
Opie bukan lagu tu yg I nak bg you dengar hahaha..
lagu ni la.
ku kan setia menjagamu
bersama dirimu,dirimu o...o..
sampai nanti akan slalu
bersama dirimu
bersama dirimu,dirimu o...o..
sampai nanti akan slalu
bersama dirimu
p/s: I dah kehilangan Sherina Ellyana, xnak kehilangan Opie lak..mood bukan jiwang taw
Kawan Baik
last friday, 15 April 2011 bnyk benda yang berlaku. 1st skali Opie collapse lepas tu kene masuk hospital. 2nd, tarikh ni adalah Harijadi adik I n kawan I yang paling baik sekali Abdul Muiz (Abe). 3rd, tarikh ni gak dah masuk 6 bulan kenal Opie since 15 October 2010. so arini memang bz gile la, dengan nak jumpe Abe, nak settle kan bil rumah bagai, nak beli adiah untuk adik lagi n dengan Opie x sedar lagi kat Raffle Hospital. macam2 perasaan ada ni. so malam tu Opie pun text die dah sedar around 3.00am. lepas tu die cerita la masalah die apa yang berlaku. lepas tu terbukak la cerita pasal kawan baik. tiba2 terkeluar ayat kelas atasan.
1st I baca terus teringat kat Abe and wtf cakap camni. terasa gile. time tu ape x berapa nak sihat lagi so, I cakap la xde pape. padahal benda ni terus bermain dalam kepala kot sampai la petang tadi. Abe ni la kawan I yang memahami and selalu tolong I. time lepak ngan die bapak gembira sampai boleh hilang semua masalah.
I xkesah kalau nak kutuk I or kawan I yang lain, tapi tolong la jgn kutuk kawan baik I. sedangkan radin kutuk Opie pun I marah, ni kan pulak kawan baik I yang dah kenal sejak kecik lagi. ni bukan emo taw. I sayang semua kawan baik I. sorry buat you sakit hati petang tadi. ego I keluar balik.
enuff about this k..tlg lupakan..
Sherina Ellyana
Sherina Ellyana Sulaiman (Nana) atau pun nama manjanyer Elly ni menjadi obses bukan sebab apa. ni semua disebabkan ciri2 die. die dilahirkan pada 19 April 1987, sepatutnyer skang ni nak masuk 24 tahun la. dia meninggal dunia 8 July 2007 disebabkan allergy makan kacang. die mempunyai masalah asthma. masalah asthma ni xmenjadi masalah pun kalau kite dah sayang kat seseorang tu. die x pernah bercinta sejak kecil sehingga la bersama dengan Nami (Hafidz). Nami ni dulu bf akak die. lepas clash dengan akak die atas alasan yang munasabah, Nami dapat couple dengan Elly. Elly xberani nak couple sebelum ni sebab die penah diketawakan oleh lelaki yg diminat sebab Elly gagap. GAGAP, ni semua kecacatan yang boleh dimaafkan la, bodoh gile laki tu. lepas tu abang Elly ni terus pukul laki tu guna kayu baseball. nasib baik abg die yang pukul, kalau akak die Mira yg pukul confirm masuk ICU. dengar cite Mira ni banyak belajar ilmu mempertahankan diri and kepercayaan die tentang kekuatan kaum wanita. cukup la pasal keluarga dieorang ni kan.
berbalik tentang Elly ni, masalah die cuma gagap and malu nak bergaul dengan orang. bukan cantik menjadi ukuran jugak la. untuk pengetahuan Opie, kiteorg yg dikalangan loser ni, kalau dapat awek yang xsecocok n cuma masalah die gagap ni memang puas hati la. susah kot nak cari awek hot camni. masalah die ni memang x menjadi masalah la bg kiteorang. bnyk lg nk bgtau ni tapi nanti kantoi lak bnyk stalk tentang die, hehehe.
so Opie, tolong jgn hancurkan mimpi2 indah I ni. you dah ada Zharif biar I ngan die je k hehehe
nk taw bnyk lg ttg Elly tgk la ni http://ezreenemira.blogspot.com/2008/07/sherina-ellyana.html
so Opie, tolong jgn hancurkan mimpi2 indah I ni. you dah ada Zharif biar I ngan die je k hehehe
nk taw bnyk lg ttg Elly tgk la ni http://ezreenemira.blogspot.com/2008/07/sherina-ellyana.html
p/s: i'm a good stalker rite hahaha
Zharif Bux
oke Opie. sebenarnya I memang dah lama pun tahu pasal korang ni. bukan nye nak tunjuk hebat ke ape, kita memang boleh nak menipu tapi ni semua I bnyk kali dah mengalaminyer and 'ingat art of lying'. so yeah, I memang xkesah pun *tolongjanganpikirbukan*. jujur I cakap, I xkesah langsung pasal korang ni. die boleh buat kan you gembira, so, buat apa I nak sibuk kn.
biar la I terang kan apa yang Zharif ni lebih dari I :
1-die pandai bagi kasih sayang,
2-bab2 mencarut ni memang I hebat hahaha
3-I xreti layan perempuan
4-I suka panggil you MOK n perempuan xsuka kn. *tapiMOKtucomelkot*
senang cite banyak la nak tulis and semua nyer opposite la dgn girls things tu hahaha..
nak dijadikan cite, I happy je bila you ngan Zharif k. I lagi suka kalau you bagitau awal2 and xde la nak emo2 semua ni. dah bnyk kali I try nk suruh you mengaku sendiri, arini baru la tau gak. kan I dah cakap awal2 I xkesah pun benda ni semua, janji you happy. lagipun kite ni memang macam ditakdirkan bukan untuk bersama, Opie bapak la hotnyer. so lepas ni tolong la jangan nak menipu sebab nak jaga hati orang. menipu ni memang boleh larikan kita dari masalah, tapi masalah tu akan datang balik. thats all about Zharif, and I hope you guys akan gembira lagi lepas ni k. Chill k..
1 lagi nak bagitau ni, Opie kalau sayang sangat persahabatan ni,tolong la jgn bg Zharif password ttg blog ni. I xsuka la orang lain baca tentang diri ape yang I tulis kat sini k. kalau die dah tahu tolong tukar password please.
p/s: Opie menipu skali lagi, best buddy die Ginda kot hahahahaaha...art of lying
Saturday, April 16, 2011
The Obsession of ACT
last week firdaus syafiq cerita pasal dia baca blog ACT *pendekkannamasothatorangtakfaham* lama jugak lar baru opie response.benda pertama opie masuk, humanghai banyak gila.mana nak mula ni.so baca arahan oke.copy paste dalam word.its easier for me.i took 2 days to read *pluslap2dayslar* so habis baca.
why i call it obsession? because my buddy right here sangat lar obses nya dengan salah sorang charaacter dalam cerita tu.so oookkkeeeyyyy.bhahahaha.she's beautiful anyway.bila dia obses opie pun jadi obses sama cari diorang2 ni semua.tell you the truth, hero dia biasa je tapi awek pergh! XD
moral of the story :
1. cuba layan je kalau orang cakap best, kalau rasa tak best stop lar
2. siapa kata orang tak handsome tak boleh ada awek?
1. cuba layan je kalau orang cakap best, kalau rasa tak best stop lar
2. siapa kata orang tak handsome tak boleh ada awek?
Love without trust
Knowing how to love without trust takes strength to struggle in a relationship where you feel insecure. Once trust is gone in a relationship, there's always lingering doubts if whether the woman will make the same mistake again. If love and emotions override logic, here are some ways to keep the relationship going with little to no trust.
Accept the relationship as it is. People lose their trust from actions that are deal breakers. Cheating, lying and abuse usually makes it hard to stay secure, but if you truly want to love without trust, learn to accept the relationship and the person you are with without judging her faults. Realize you faced a huge bump in the relationship and you two will overcome it eventually.
Stay hopeful. Most people who earn distrust promises to make changes and improvements. Continue to hope your significant other become a better person and works on her flaws. Go the extra mile and consider professional counseling to find the root of the problem that causes lack of trust.. With enough optimism and determination to make the relationship stronger, you might need to impose strict boundaries so your woman faces the consequences of betraying you.3.Communicate. Once you realize the relationship will never to be the same, air out your emotions about the hurtful experience your partner caused to lose your trust. Once you speak your mind, it is up your partner to make a decision to make positive changes so the relationship can grow successfully. By acknowledging your disappointments, your partner can take responsibility for her wrongful actions.
LOVE or CRUSH
firdaus syafiq brought this up so i guess i wanna know am i cruch or im in love
In front of the person you like, your heart beats faster.
But in front of the person you love, you get happy.
well i havent meet both so far ikut feelings je.im happy with everybody.except when he said nice things to me lar
In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring.
But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter.
tak paham -_-"
If you look into the eyes of the one you like, you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you smile.
belum pernah lagi lar adoi!
In front of the person you like, you can't say everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love, you cant.
true! might as well ank jaga hati dia kan.
In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy.
But in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.
-_-"
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like.
But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you love.
true jugak!
When the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.
entah
The feeling of love starts from the eye.
But the feeling of like starts from the ear.
but mine is terbalik.how?
So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.
But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever
In front of the person you like, your heart beats faster.
But in front of the person you love, you get happy.
well i havent meet both so far ikut feelings je.im happy with everybody.except when he said nice things to me lar
In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring.
But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter.
tak paham -_-"
If you look into the eyes of the one you like, you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you smile.
belum pernah lagi lar adoi!
In front of the person you like, you can't say everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love, you cant.
true! might as well ank jaga hati dia kan.
In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy.
But in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.
-_-"
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like.
But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you love.
true jugak!
When the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.
entah
The feeling of love starts from the eye.
But the feeling of like starts from the ear.
but mine is terbalik.how?
So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.
But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever
G I R L S
Few things that you need to know about girls.
- Don’t ever lie to us; we always find out.
- We don’t enjoy talking dirty to you as much as you
- enjoy listening.
- Don’t say you understand when you don’t.
- Girls are pretty, but yours is the Prettiest!
- You don’t have PMS; don’t act like you know what it’s like.
- Saying something sweet might get you off the hook; doing something sweet will always get you off the hook.
- If you talk about having a big dick; we know you don’t.
- Size does matter, but only to hoes; not girls that want relationships.
- We don’t like it when you act like Mr. Big.
- A system in your car only impresses your homeboys not us.
- No matter what you say, your ex-girlfriend is a hoe.
- It’s good to be sensitive, sometimes.
- If you did something wrong or even if you didn’t, apologize.
- Be spontaneous; dinner and a movie won’t always cut it.
- We are self-conscious by nature; we can’t help it.
- We are DrAmA queens.
- Fashion police do exist.
- Don’t ask us to give head; if you are nice you just might get it.
- We absolutely DO NOT care about monster trucks, car systems, paintball, or anything else you and your friends talk about.
- Hugs and kisses must be given at all times.
- We don’t shave our legs evryday so get over it.
- Don’t make bets about us; we always find out.
- Shave; no matter how cool you think your goatte or beard or mustache looks, we hate it.
- Even if you think it is cool to burp, fart, or emitt other strange gases from your body, it is not.
- Don’t compare our breasts with Pamela Anderson’s; hers are fake, just remember that. ( u have a better shot at ours than you ever will with hers)
- It is not cool to shoot snot rockets.
- We are beautiful at all times.
- We will always think we are fat, so humor us and tell us we aren’t.
- You can shoot hoops, score a goal, knock down big fat guys, and hit a little baseball with a stick, so why the hell can’t you piss in the toilet and not on it.
- Most importantly: we are always right; so don’t forget it.
- We like a man that knows the difference between Whirlpool parts and body parts.
- Watching for shooting stars is more romantic than watching you play video games.
- In a galaxy far, far away there was once a man that used his brain first and not other appendages
Chilling
well hello there *ala2anwarhadi*, i've been stop writing since the day that so called busy day.working, texting, fb-ing, twitting, youtubing and all so hari ni i would like to cover few stodies since the that day.what day? the day that i've been busy lar! adoi!
oke march....
moment when i said "go with the flow" i actually did go with the flow.that is when i started to get closer and closer with buxxie *ihopehedontmindusingthisnameinmyblog* and not to say i have neglected firdaus syafiq its just we're not communicating at all.yes at all.siang busy kerja.malam penat.10 above baru contact and sometime 15 minit je borak.yes i know pathetic.
moment when i said "go with the flow" i actually did go with the flow.that is when i started to get closer and closer with buxxie *ihopehedontmindusingthisnameinmyblog* and not to say i have neglected firdaus syafiq its just we're not communicating at all.yes at all.siang busy kerja.malam penat.10 above baru contact and sometime 15 minit je borak.yes i know pathetic.
so actually i cant remember anything that happen in march.biar benar opie.bhahahaha.true doh.trying my best to refresh everything.ups and down lar.oke.erm arr ehh uuuu eeee.bhahahaha.annoying.
tak kira lar march ke febuary ke its a busy day for me with works and all.oke jom cerita pasal kerja.dalam pada garang2 client opie ni, they like how i do my work *hijackdirisendirini* whatever im telling you the truth what so yeah.since they dah ada another company, diorang nak guna exchange jugak macam HQ diorang so that is my 2nd projrct kot.oke tak first project sorang.so i did lar.from march up to today dah aroung 60%.i still have mini projects and first project on portal.so far everything is under control. XD
love life, like i said we're getting closer and i didnt tell firdaus syafiq the truth sebab nak jaga hati dia.but in the end dia akan tau jugak.im the worst friend ever.kita merancang tuhan menentukan.i know i done wrong but atleast i im trying.may be just may be i didnt try that hard.
what so special about buxxie kalau nak dibandingkan dengan firdaus syafiq? i cant answer that.but im keeping my words that i would never leave firdaus syafiq.he's my best buddy! XD
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Wherever I Go
how sweet.... but it did hurt me.....
thanks..... and im so sorry.....
i did not mean to hurt you..................
things happen......
i'm holding on a relationship ht never breaks......
you have my word... X((
Friday, April 1, 2011
I xnak kehilangan Opie
Where do I begin?
Should I tell you
How bad I need you now
You're underneath my skin
But I'm confused
My head is spinning all around
I waited so long
I need to know, darling
What is on your mind
Normally I try to run
And I might even want to hide
Cause I never knew what I wanted
Til I looked into your eyes
So am I in this alone?
What I'm looking for is a sign
That you feel how I feel for you
Baby please don't let me go
Baby please don't let me go
Baby please don't let me go
No, please don't let me go
Baby no, no, no, no
Badabadeebaba
What else can I say? (Can I say)
My heart is beating double time, yeah
And do you feel the same? (Do you feel the same)
Don't leave me in the dark, no
But baby don't put out this spark, no
I waited so long
I need to know, darling
What is on your mind
Normally I try to run
Should I tell you
How bad I need you now
You're underneath my skin
But I'm confused
My head is spinning all around
I waited so long
I need to know, darling
What is on your mind
Normally I try to run
And I might even want to hide
Cause I never knew what I wanted
Til I looked into your eyes
So am I in this alone?
What I'm looking for is a sign
That you feel how I feel for you
Baby please don't let me go
Baby please don't let me go
Baby please don't let me go
No, please don't let me go
Baby no, no, no, no
Badabadeebaba
What else can I say? (Can I say)
My heart is beating double time, yeah
And do you feel the same? (Do you feel the same)
Don't leave me in the dark, no
But baby don't put out this spark, no
I waited so long
I need to know, darling
What is on your mind
Normally I try to run
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