AFF

hai,

i always share my story here, right inside this blog.so heres what i want to share.

opie ada ramai kawan, start from jiran, sekolah, tempat tusyen, kolej, office, facebook and twitter.tapi ada antara diorang yang opie pilih dan letak dekat tempat yang paling special dalam hati.

when i said special, i mean 'i carry relationships that would never break' why? because i said so.but freindship does not last long.its like friendship tak suka dengan opie.1 by 1 people pushing me away.why? whats wrong with me? what have i done? is it that bad? am i a bad person to be with? gosh...... this is pathetic.

so i sit back and think, maybe just maybe i dont deserve any.people dont like me but they pretend like they like me.but i am what i am.i didnt text people, its my nature, i didnt say hai to people its my nature.that doesnt mean i dont care! and i dont want to be a friend who find her friend just because im in trouble.

actually thats not my point.this one goes out to you Firdaus Syafiq.i cant accept the fact that you've change.i tau you kasar tapi tak macam sekarang ni.i tau apa i buat sangat sakit.but its something i cant control.none of us can.

radin cakap leaving me is the hardest thing you did.but i didnt ask you to.who ask you to leave?! fine you blah sebab you frust right?! i know.fine i respect your decision to leave for your own good.but mok, i sayang you kot.gosh!! you tak pernah gurau kasar dengan i macam tu tau tak! mana lar i tak terasa! and you blah macam tu jer.what do you expect me to do? chase you? im a girl oke.fine girl does chase a guy.but i cant do that sebab i respect you and your decision!

of all my friends yang i kenal and i hilang, you yang i nak cari, nak stalk and you yang i miss talking to, texting with.last text kita tu akan makan berbulan2 or maybe tak contact langsung.im oke with that.sebab respect keputusan you.taknak hurt you dah.but im not going anywhere and you know where to find me.