Terasa bila you didnt ask mine. memang you over me sudah kan #SZUB.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Wondering
"I wonder if i ever cross your mind....."
"Its not bout hating you playing games, but the moment when i need you, where were you?"
Monday, February 27, 2012
Heartless
its been like what? 46 days? still? im not good on moving on.really, yeah thats suck.
from 16th to 24th February, i was admitted in Sunway Medical Centre.puncanya tak dapat dikenal pasti but before tu lagi opie dah muntah2, makan muntah makan muntah.so on 16th february konon nak pergi jogging.nak tenangkan fikiran.my actual problem is my ex boyfriend.opie sangat sayangkan dia.and i cant let go, even if i have to or i must let him go.sebab opie tak dapat happy kan dia.so yeah.terlalu banyak fikir, apa kan jadi lepas ni.will i be jealous if he met someone else.dia text siapa? dia kejut siapa.dia suka tak suara that girl masa bangun tidur.will he be sharing everything bout him with that girl.lepas tu jealous macam nak gila.menangis bengkak2 mata.akhirnya di masukkan ke wad kerana dijumpai terbaring si tepi jalan.
sepanjang tempoh opie berada dalam wad, opie tidur.tak sedarkan diri, dalam erti kata lain 'koma.doctor cakap opie stress macam tak tau nak buat apa, pegi mana, dan sebagainya.macam mana dia tau, tu opie tak sure.yes, memang betul apa doctor tu cakap.i used to have a perfect life.i have family, friends, bf and job.but semua tu hilang dalam sekelip mata.i loose my bf because tak sabar dengan keadaan, and i quit my job because i dont have the passion to work there anymore.and the worst part is, zharif langsung tak cari opie.rasa macam nak bunuh diri.but if i killed myself, it wont change anything.dia tetap dia.dia tak ingat tentang opie pun.i wonder how he did it, but i cant do the same.why?
so yeah, lepas pada tu i realize that his not the one for me.i mean if he's the one he'll find me right? tanya khabar.but takde.he promise to be there, but nop.takde pun.opie rasa macam sampah.tapi tak boleh buat apa.rendahkan saja ego, teruskan twitt tentang macam mana seksa hidup opie tanpa dia, bukan sebab nak tunjuk, tapi this is who i am.im not hipokrit.biar la follower nak cakap apa pun.semua tu tak penting, bagi opie itu tempat opie meluahkan perasaan opie.bukan untuk dia atau siapa2, tapi untuk opie.
hari2 stalk twitter dia, sikit pun dia tak rasa apa opie rasa.Ya Allah, jika ini balasan yang Kau berikan, akku akur.opie terima.
from 16th to 24th February, i was admitted in Sunway Medical Centre.puncanya tak dapat dikenal pasti but before tu lagi opie dah muntah2, makan muntah makan muntah.so on 16th february konon nak pergi jogging.nak tenangkan fikiran.my actual problem is my ex boyfriend.opie sangat sayangkan dia.and i cant let go, even if i have to or i must let him go.sebab opie tak dapat happy kan dia.so yeah.terlalu banyak fikir, apa kan jadi lepas ni.will i be jealous if he met someone else.dia text siapa? dia kejut siapa.dia suka tak suara that girl masa bangun tidur.will he be sharing everything bout him with that girl.lepas tu jealous macam nak gila.menangis bengkak2 mata.akhirnya di masukkan ke wad kerana dijumpai terbaring si tepi jalan.
sepanjang tempoh opie berada dalam wad, opie tidur.tak sedarkan diri, dalam erti kata lain 'koma.doctor cakap opie stress macam tak tau nak buat apa, pegi mana, dan sebagainya.macam mana dia tau, tu opie tak sure.yes, memang betul apa doctor tu cakap.i used to have a perfect life.i have family, friends, bf and job.but semua tu hilang dalam sekelip mata.i loose my bf because tak sabar dengan keadaan, and i quit my job because i dont have the passion to work there anymore.and the worst part is, zharif langsung tak cari opie.rasa macam nak bunuh diri.but if i killed myself, it wont change anything.dia tetap dia.dia tak ingat tentang opie pun.i wonder how he did it, but i cant do the same.why?
so yeah, lepas pada tu i realize that his not the one for me.i mean if he's the one he'll find me right? tanya khabar.but takde.he promise to be there, but nop.takde pun.opie rasa macam sampah.tapi tak boleh buat apa.rendahkan saja ego, teruskan twitt tentang macam mana seksa hidup opie tanpa dia, bukan sebab nak tunjuk, tapi this is who i am.im not hipokrit.biar la follower nak cakap apa pun.semua tu tak penting, bagi opie itu tempat opie meluahkan perasaan opie.bukan untuk dia atau siapa2, tapi untuk opie.
hari2 stalk twitter dia, sikit pun dia tak rasa apa opie rasa.Ya Allah, jika ini balasan yang Kau berikan, akku akur.opie terima.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
On The 33 day
Hi you, how are doing? fine? no? I bet you were OKE since someone taking care of you kan.
Semalam Opie twitt dengan Ariff.macam2 opie twitt dengan dia.pasal makan, pasal tempat yang best buat vacation and last sekali bout us.yes us.
Dia tanya opie macam mana boleh putus.so opie cakap it was my fault.really.dia cakap benda boleh settle tapi kenapa opie jalan mudah dengan; cara putus.
Dia tanya jugak, "dia dah move on, opie still tak move lagi"
Opie reply, "things change, tak biasa dia takde"
Move on, tapi hati tak rela.knowing that dia dah move on ......
15/02/2012
previous post is on 13/02.. masa tu Opie ada masalah.resdung sampai taktau apa masalah tak boleh nak menaip langsung.so Opie continue harini lar.
i have this feeling that he's already moved on.kalau dulu Opie risau kalau study dia terjejas, life tunggang langgang.seems like mine yang problem ni. XD i cant except that he's leaving me after all that we have go through together.
it is best i did the same thing to.i wont put hopes lagi.i wont look back lagi. *insyaallah* bhahahahaha.moving on is not my thing lar senang cerita.when it comes to love opie memang kalah lar.of course i love him amat sangat.tapi we're not meant to be.lepas ni takkan dengan lagi perkataan "taknak hilangkan you." "tak nak paksakan you." bahasa melayu dia sangat teruk. XD
#SZUB, if you found someone else you'll be happier insyaallah.i thank you for all things that you've done for me.note that i appreciate semuanya.note that i sayang you.insyaallah panjang umur kita jumpa.i miss you sangat2. -__-" jaga diri oke.
Semalam Opie twitt dengan Ariff.macam2 opie twitt dengan dia.pasal makan, pasal tempat yang best buat vacation and last sekali bout us.yes us.
Dia tanya opie macam mana boleh putus.so opie cakap it was my fault.really.dia cakap benda boleh settle tapi kenapa opie jalan mudah dengan; cara putus.
Dia tanya jugak, "dia dah move on, opie still tak move lagi"
Opie reply, "things change, tak biasa dia takde"
Move on, tapi hati tak rela.knowing that dia dah move on ......
15/02/2012
previous post is on 13/02.. masa tu Opie ada masalah.resdung sampai taktau apa masalah tak boleh nak menaip langsung.so Opie continue harini lar.
i have this feeling that he's already moved on.kalau dulu Opie risau kalau study dia terjejas, life tunggang langgang.seems like mine yang problem ni. XD i cant except that he's leaving me after all that we have go through together.
it is best i did the same thing to.i wont put hopes lagi.i wont look back lagi. *insyaallah* bhahahahaha.moving on is not my thing lar senang cerita.when it comes to love opie memang kalah lar.of course i love him amat sangat.tapi we're not meant to be.lepas ni takkan dengan lagi perkataan "taknak hilangkan you." "tak nak paksakan you." bahasa melayu dia sangat teruk. XD
#SZUB, if you found someone else you'll be happier insyaallah.i thank you for all things that you've done for me.note that i appreciate semuanya.note that i sayang you.insyaallah panjang umur kita jumpa.i miss you sangat2. -__-" jaga diri oke.
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Beggar of Love
walking down the dusty road,
that merged with the asphalt.
i came across a door,
that i supposed was open for all.
and there i stood hopefully,
from within the lady came.
throwing at me a few pieces of bread,
that were leftover without claim.
she gave me such a stare,
as if, a lump of flesh was i;
she saw the hunger in my body,
and overlooked the starving eye.
i gathered the fallen pieces,
and silently walked away from the scene.
the road later lead me,
to a mighty fenced mansion.
but the humans within i thought,
had indeed lost their freedom.
on the gate i stood.
what on earth men wanted? ; i thought!
when its just a river; meandering across
a sudden complaint, came from behind the bars,
and the keeper showed me the way downtown.
thus rubbing some salt on my healing scars.
i looked on to the way,
and gave the keeper a smile,
for i knew he was doing his job,
and the road to me was my life.!
the morning thus came and went,
the noon in grief i spent,
and in the evening i opened up my heart, ,
to amuse my friends on our sabbath.
they welcomed me with their arms open wide,
and whispered to me, -'u my friend are a beggar,
so what offense we are yet another ones'
i was caught amongst a league of beggars,
and a beggar was i, but unlike them,
i needed love to survive.
and to gain love i walked from door to door.
but all they did was to; just ignore.
as i could give nothing to them on my rove
they could hardly see that i was 'a beggar of love'! ! !
that merged with the asphalt.
i came across a door,
that i supposed was open for all.
and there i stood hopefully,
from within the lady came.
throwing at me a few pieces of bread,
that were leftover without claim.
she gave me such a stare,
as if, a lump of flesh was i;
she saw the hunger in my body,
and overlooked the starving eye.
i gathered the fallen pieces,
and silently walked away from the scene.
the road later lead me,
to a mighty fenced mansion.
but the humans within i thought,
had indeed lost their freedom.
on the gate i stood.
what on earth men wanted? ; i thought!
when its just a river; meandering across
a sudden complaint, came from behind the bars,
and the keeper showed me the way downtown.
thus rubbing some salt on my healing scars.
i looked on to the way,
and gave the keeper a smile,
for i knew he was doing his job,
and the road to me was my life.!
the morning thus came and went,
the noon in grief i spent,
and in the evening i opened up my heart, ,
to amuse my friends on our sabbath.
they welcomed me with their arms open wide,
and whispered to me, -'u my friend are a beggar,
so what offense we are yet another ones'
i was caught amongst a league of beggars,
and a beggar was i, but unlike them,
i needed love to survive.
and to gain love i walked from door to door.
but all they did was to; just ignore.
as i could give nothing to them on my rove
they could hardly see that i was 'a beggar of love'! ! !
Refresh lagi dan lagi
ini!! ini dia!!
keras saya disini.keras macam batu.
i bet this girl will sing Terukir Di Bintang kalau dapat #SZUB
redha!
Hold it Back
i keep on refreshing he's conversation with that Aida Awang.dia tau opie memang tak suka dia dengan Aida Awang tu ever since diorang start chating.rasa macam nak menjerit, rasa macam nak marah rasa macam nak terkeluar biji mata tengok that girl baik sangat dengan #SZUB.tapi kenapa opie tak fikir on the bright side? kenapa opie nak marah.mana tau dia boleh jadi yang terbaik untuk #SZUB kan?
sebabkan opie sangat sedih tu sebab opie jealous but things will be worst kalau kita ada sifat benci kan? so im going to let go.lambat, sakit, susah tu semua depends on how i do it.instead of twitter, now opie akan luahkan semuanya dalam blog.kalau luahkan dekat twitter nanti #SZUB boleh baca.memang nak dia tahu apa opie rasa, tapi rasanya kalau lagi kerap nanti dia bosan.so biar semuanya habis dekat sini.
for you Love of My Life, kalau nak cari GF cari lar yang kaki game macam you so that it wont happen again.jaga diri.
sebabkan opie sangat sedih tu sebab opie jealous but things will be worst kalau kita ada sifat benci kan? so im going to let go.lambat, sakit, susah tu semua depends on how i do it.instead of twitter, now opie akan luahkan semuanya dalam blog.kalau luahkan dekat twitter nanti #SZUB boleh baca.memang nak dia tahu apa opie rasa, tapi rasanya kalau lagi kerap nanti dia bosan.so biar semuanya habis dekat sini.
for you Love of My Life, kalau nak cari GF cari lar yang kaki game macam you so that it wont happen again.jaga diri.
Lets Start it Over Again
Hi my name is Sophie Azhar, whats yours?
I was born on 13th September 1989 that make me 23 years old this year.staying at Bandar Diraja Klang Selangor Darul Ehsan and im doing nothing *fornow*.last year i applied for UiTM, konon nya mahu sambung belajar, and yes i'm selected, but now i don't know whether i should or i should not go for it.we'll see how it goes.
im single, but not available because i was so stupid to stay where i am and waiting for nothing knowing that he already started dating and flirting.why cant i do the same? because i dont feel like doing it.because im in love with one and only #SZUB.thats why im STUPID.
its day 31 already.dia relax je, tapi opie macam orang gila.tapi tidak mengemis wang ringgit.mengemis cinta yang kononnya agung.yang kononnya cinta tu untuk dibawa mati.cinta mati.puiiii! tak sedar yang diri ni hanya sekadar badut, patung, tunggul.tak sedar diri, mengemis pada yang tak nak.mengemis pada yang tak sudi.mengemis pada si bongkak belagak.bodoh!
its my fault at the very beginning.i was busy working, i dont have time for him so he started playing DotA again.defuqqqq! opie benci perkataan DotA tu.thats the only time that i have so im planning to spend it with my dear #SZUB, text and terima reply lambat. "sryg, DotA tadi" im about to get pissed off tapi sebab taknak gaduh takpe lar biar je and it leads to my final decision; lets break up.
was it my mistake? was it yours? or maybe kita memang tak ada jodoh? so i tried to accept the fact that we're not meant for each other.as day goes by, hari2 saya rindu awak.hari2 teringin nak call.hari2 teringin nak dengar suara, hari2 nak orang panggil saya sayang.hari2 nak msg waktu pagi.calls that wakes me up.tapi itu semua tak mungkin.
what if i start to dating back? can things change? can i be happy? can people love me for who i am? will i be jealous? will they be as good as #SZUB? it day 31 now.i guess 1 month is enough.if he can do it why cant i? let create a new life, lets create new twiiter account lets not stalk he's page.lets do anything that can help me let go of you.lets do it.
I was born on 13th September 1989 that make me 23 years old this year.staying at Bandar Diraja Klang Selangor Darul Ehsan and im doing nothing *fornow*.last year i applied for UiTM, konon nya mahu sambung belajar, and yes i'm selected, but now i don't know whether i should or i should not go for it.we'll see how it goes.
im single, but not available because i was so stupid to stay where i am and waiting for nothing knowing that he already started dating and flirting.why cant i do the same? because i dont feel like doing it.because im in love with one and only #SZUB.thats why im STUPID.
its day 31 already.dia relax je, tapi opie macam orang gila.tapi tidak mengemis wang ringgit.mengemis cinta yang kononnya agung.yang kononnya cinta tu untuk dibawa mati.cinta mati.puiiii! tak sedar yang diri ni hanya sekadar badut, patung, tunggul.tak sedar diri, mengemis pada yang tak nak.mengemis pada yang tak sudi.mengemis pada si bongkak belagak.bodoh!
its my fault at the very beginning.i was busy working, i dont have time for him so he started playing DotA again.defuqqqq! opie benci perkataan DotA tu.thats the only time that i have so im planning to spend it with my dear #SZUB, text and terima reply lambat. "sryg, DotA tadi" im about to get pissed off tapi sebab taknak gaduh takpe lar biar je and it leads to my final decision; lets break up.
was it my mistake? was it yours? or maybe kita memang tak ada jodoh? so i tried to accept the fact that we're not meant for each other.as day goes by, hari2 saya rindu awak.hari2 teringin nak call.hari2 teringin nak dengar suara, hari2 nak orang panggil saya sayang.hari2 nak msg waktu pagi.calls that wakes me up.tapi itu semua tak mungkin.
what if i start to dating back? can things change? can i be happy? can people love me for who i am? will i be jealous? will they be as good as #SZUB? it day 31 now.i guess 1 month is enough.if he can do it why cant i? let create a new life, lets create new twiiter account lets not stalk he's page.lets do anything that can help me let go of you.lets do it.
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